All through my childhood, I was sent to Sunday School and Vacation Bible School. During these years, I heard the gospel clearly explained. I did not think that I was a sinner, but rather a good person. During these years, I prayed more than once for Jesus to save me, but did not really see myself actually as a sinner.

As a teen, I also attended worship service, but just to sit with my friends and chat quietly at the back during the sermon, thinking all the while, ‘That doesn’t apply to me.’ After I began living away from home during part of my college years and later as a teacher, I very rarely attended church, as I had no desire to be there. My life during these years was very self-centered with no desire for spiritual connection of any kind.

Many years later, I listened to a discussion of my students in one of the classes I taught, and thought, “All these students’ ideas differ from one another. Is there one right answer?” I decided to search for the ‘right’ answer in my Bible, even though I’d never actually read much of it, except for reading aloud a few verses in Sunday School. The more I read the Bible, the more it began to interest me, and eventually, I saw myself as the sinner I am. I confessed my sins and received assurance from God that I was forgiven because of what Jesus did on the cross. For the first time in my life, I felt true peace and joy. “And you, being dead in your trespasses. . .He has made alive together with Him, having forgiven you all trespasses, having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross.” Colossians 2:14

In the 30+ years since that day, God has never forsaken me, no matter what trial I was facing at the time. Jesus is my peace, as He satisfied the righteous justice of God on my behalf, and, “As for me, I will behold Thy face in righteousness; I shall be satisfied, when I awake, with Thy likeness.” Psalm 17:15

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